apprehension

Like every other high school student, I'm very anxious for spring break and for this week to finally be finished. I'm excited to just relax and not worry about studying or homework. I'm feel so relieved that there's only one more week.

I'm kind of disappointed that I'm going to be gone for a portion of the break. Everyday I watch the seniors become more sentimental about graduating and leaving everyone and everything behind. It's weird, last year, I was close to many of the members of the class of 2006, but I don't remember all of this sentiment. No one seemed apprehensive to leave or felt the need to repair all of their friendships and dramas that they had experienced during high school. All of this apprehension and sentiment seems to be rubbing off on me. Maybe it's because I feel a lot closer to being a senior than I did last year.

I'm staring to feel like the fact that I'm leaving for break means that I'm missing out on whatever is happening at home. Now that I think about it, I don't want to leave Hawaii until I graduate. I mean, I pretty much have two more summers, one more winter, and two more spring breaks before I leave. People say that it doesn't matter because everyone comes home for summer and Christmas, so everything's pretty much the same. I know this isn't true. I know people who aren't going to be home for summer. It's just sad to have to admit how much I hate change and to think about how everyone just has to deal with change, no matter how much they hate it.